HOWARD, Jensen Nicholas

[Jensen Nicholas Howard]

JENSEN NICHOLAS HOWARD

FULL NAME: Jensen Nicholas Howard.
NICKNAMES: Jay. (Melody was the only one that got away with Jen or Jenny.)
AGE: Twenty Seven.
GENDER: male
SEXUALITY: Straight
STATUS: Single
GROUP: Citizen.
GRADE: N/A.
MAJOR: N/A.
JOB OCCUPATION: Psychiatrist

HAIR: His hair is so dark, it appears black. He keeps it at all sorts of different lengths to keep things fresh though he is fonder of the longer look so he can run his fingers through it.
EYES: Light shade of brown.
SCARS/BIRTHMARKS: None that he remembers how he got. Mostly the usual childhood memories
TATTOOS: The quote “show me a sane man and I will cure him for you” in a small script on his right side.
PIERCINGS: None.
PLAY-BY: Luke Evans!

LIKES: Watching hockey and football, playing football, medical journals, talking to his patients, feeling like he’s actually doing some good, working out, taking Siggy for walks or runs, rocky road ice cream, strong coffee, meatball subs, dogs, girls with long hair, intelligent conversation, .
DISLIKES: drunks, assholes, ignorant people, hard liquor, late night phone calls, forgetting to eat, unable to help a patient, working the night shift, incoherent music, losing his notes, having a messy desk.
FEARS: Losing his parents (Mel and Derek), losing a patient (though he’s not a GP), putting his heart on the line.
SECRETS: He hasn’t spoken a word to his biological parents since he was eighteen.
PERSONALITY: Jensen is a sweet guy under all the trauma of his childhood. He overcame all those terrible years thanks to the people who had basically adopted him, informally. He’s a tough guy, always at the gym when he can find the time. Growing up he had always thought things wouldn’t get fixed if he didn’t do it himself. So he learned to take care. He grew up way too fast but Mel and Derek helped him be a kid again. Or at least, be a teenager while he still was one. They taught him how to love and in turn he became a bit of a romantic as he got older. He doesn’t consider himself a bookworm but the man sure is one, even now. He had to study his ass off to get a scholarship; the only way he was attending university. So he’s a pretty bright guy when it comes down to it and learned quite a bit about quite a lot, just to keep his options opened. But hearing every day of your life that you’re worthless, even coming from a man you don’t believe takes its toll. It took quite a while for Jensen to break free from that control and become a sociable person again. For a while he was constantly looking for approval before his adoptive parents finally got through to him; he had nothing to prove to anyone. Those who cared about him, knew the strength of his character and those that didn’t know him weren’t worth the trouble of figuring it out; namely his bio parents. What it all leads to is Jensen can still be that emotional guy sometimes. And he clings to the people he calls friends like lifelines. He’s a very loyal friend because of it. He’s quite the contradiction but at the same time, he’s quite simple. His family, more his bio dad than anything else mentally broke him every day and even though he’s slowly letting those walls he’d built up come crumbling down and that he has friends close enough to call family, it’ll still take the next thing to a miracle to prove to him that he’s not going to find more people like his parents. For that reason alone, he guards his heart well. He’s scared; plain and simple. Jensen had wanted a fresh start, like everyone else and took it with the scholarship he’d earned. More than anything he had wanted to be free of his bio parents and now he was.

MOTHER: Lydia Howard & 57.
FATHER: James Howard & 57.
SIBLINGS: None.
OTHERS: Melody Hayworth, 67 & basically adopted Jensen
Derek Hayworth, 68 & Adoptive father.
PETS: Siggy & Scottish Deerhound!
HOMETOWN: Somerset, Pennsylvania.
HISTORY: Lydia and James shouldn’t have had children. Neither wanted them and that had been the biggest selling point about the other for each of them. James came from a family of nine children, four on one side of him, three on the other and he had managed to fall through the cracks. And instead of vowing to never become that parent when he was older and had kids of his own, he went the opposite way; promising he’d never become a father. And while Lydia’s life hadn’t been that bad with just her, it hadn’t been great. Her father had been a decent enough father, until he just up and left her and her mother to start a new family in the next state. Lydia had been eleven and though she understood what was happening, didn’t understand why it was happening. Her mother turned to drinking her weight in hard liquor on a nightly basis and at eleven she was left to fend for herself. She had actually vowed never to fall in love so she would never leave behind a child as if they didn’t matter in the world. And when she’d gotten older and more interested in boys, she’d decided she would just never have children so there wouldn’t be that chance of leaving them. She had good intentions, deep down but it had also been just an excuse because she’d been terrified.

And then she got pregnant. With her priorities being questioned not just by her own mind and heart but by those friends she’d had her entire life, Lydia really thought about children for the first time in her life. By the time she’d gotten the news about the baby, it was too far along to get rid of it so she had to bring it to term at the very least. And then she had planned on giving it away. She had a family all lined up for the job and they had been paying for her medical bills and everything else. And then the day came and she didn’t want to give up the child. She’d had time to think everything through and decided she wouldn’t be her parents she would take care of this child. And for a while after the baby was born, that was true. She was an excellent mother. She got up at all hours of the night if he stirred to feed him, change him and rock him back to sleep. All the while, James complained and said he didn’t want the child, refused to do anything for the child and still by the time Jensen was three hadn’t even physically touched his son. He’d never held his baby in his arms, held his hand whilst he learned to walk and run; nothing. Lydia was there for it all but it got exhausting to be the only parent doing anything. It led to massive blowouts where Jensen would go to the neighbours so he wouldn’t hear them.

Still, James stuck around, if only to tell his son how useless he was. And then slowly, when Jensen got older, his mother joined in, giving into her husband’s way of thinking. Which, when it comes down to it meant that by the time Jensen was thirteen, he was taking care of himself more than he was being taken care of. His parents thought he was a teenager now, he could do whatever he wanted or needed for himself. Never mind that no one had ever taught him how to cook or do his own laundry or anything like that. So when he had any questions, he ran over to the neighbour’s house and asked the couple there what he needed to do. Melody took pity on the child and taught him to cook, Derek taught him how to defend himself, just in case and told Jensen to come over every day after school and they would work out together. Melody and Derek were more parents to Jensen then his own were and despite them asking him time and time again to just move in with them so he knew he would have someone to take care of him, he refused. Still, they were there for him but also allowed him his space. They were no relation to him, despite being his only real sort of family. His parents didn’t even notice if he wasn’t at home but his father was becoming increasingly violent and Jensen wanted to be there just in case he did cross that line.

Melody helped Jensen with his homework all through high school, making sure he kept his grades up. They all knew the only way he was getting into any sort of college or university was if it was on scholarship. He ended up getting a sports scholarship, after Melody and Derek offered to pay for him to be able to join a school team. He needed equipment and the cost of all that and the uniform, which he had to pay for wasn’t cheap but they’d never had children of their own. Melody couldn’t and so Jensen sort of became their child. None of them minded and he loved them more than his own parents. His scholarship papers were even sent to their house. They took care of him through a life where it seemed like nobody gave a damn about him. They gave him a cell phone for his fourteenth birthday so he would be able to call them if he was in trouble. They paid for his sports both in school and through the city so he could be active. They helped him with homework and Derek even gave him a job at the hardware store he owned. So when the scholarship papers came through, Melody had been home and had called him up. Unable to wait, he told her to open them with him on the phone to tell him what they entailed. It wasn’t a full ride scholarship, but it was most of one. He needed to find housing, it wouldn’t cover housing or a meal plan. But those things didn’t intimidate Jensen. He’d been saving all the money he had earned at the hardware store, in a bank account Melody had helped him open. He had enough saved already in the few short years since then to get himself a comfortable enough space nearly anywhere for a school year. He could find something and find a job to keep up the rest of the rent payments.

What he hadn’t known was that Melody and Derek had been adding money to his account as well. And in reality, he’d had nearly double what he thought he did since he didn’t check his account at all. Derek put the money in the account straight away and if he ever needed something, he took twenty dollars out and that usually covered it. He hadn’t purchased anything more extravagant than a laptop to do his homework on, which he left at their house so his parents wouldn’t find it and think he was stealing or something equally stupid; not that they even realised he was around. Six months before he was supposed to pack up and head out for NYU, Jensen caught his father throwing his mother across the room and went crazy. Derek had been out mowing the lawn and hearing the commotion, stopped what he was doing to rush over and see what was going on. He found Jensen atop his father, throwing punch after punch into any surface of the man he could find. It took a minute or two but Derek finally pulled Jensen free and dragged him out the front door, all the while telling him whatever he could to calm the poor boy down.

From then Jensen stayed with them. And when it was time for him to leave, Derek handed over the keys to his Mustang, told him how much he loved him and thought of him as his son and stepped back for his wife to do the same. It wasn’t until then that Jensen told them how much he thought of them as his parents, not the ones he had been born with and how much he loved them. He also told them that as much as he appreciated all they’d done for him, the only way he would ever be back was if one of them got sick. And he’d kept his word. They visited him in New York all through school and even afterward. And not once did he ever go back until he got a phone call in the middle of the night. He’d just gotten in from a party, not quite drunk but definitely not able to drive in his state. Seeing Derek’s name, he answered and sobered up pretty damn quickly. Melody had been out with friends and their car had been in an accident. Another car had served into their lane and hit them head on. There had been no way Melody, who had been driving could have moved out of the way in time. And the lot of them were in serious condition. Jensen swore he would be there as soon as he could. And first thing in the morning, he hopped behind the wheel of the Mustang he kept in excellent condition and drove non-stop back to his hometown hospital. Derek was sitting in the waiting room when he raced in.

Things didn’t look good and Jensen broke down into tears, leaving Derek to console him. Of the lot in the car, Melody and her friend Gemma had gotten the worst of it being in the front seat. Both were still in critical condition when Jensen had gotten in. He put his life on hold for six months, giving up all sorts of opportunities back in New York to be there with Mel and Derek. He applied for a job in the hospital, since he’d finished school and had gotten his degree and all his credentials for Psychiatry. He was a certified shrink. And when he wasn’t working as a doctor, he was at the hardware store, helping the only father he really knew. Slowly Melody made it to recovery and eventually home but Jensen had been scared for a long time and didn’t want to leave. Finally, it took Melody laughingly yelling at him to get out and have a life of his own to actually make him return to New York. He had a job lined up at a hospital there and he’d left all his friends behind, barely keeping in touch because he’d been too distraught about Melody to do much of anything helpful; though he tried. And while he had on his white coat, his head was in his job but once he took it off, he became undone.

Now back in New York, Jensen keeps in constant contact with his family, always telling them whenever he gets off the phone with either of them how much he loves them unconditionally. He doesn’t care if he’s with friends and their teasing him. He had nearly lost the only woman who had actually treated him like a son. He knew how short life could be and he didn’t want to miss an opportunity to tell them how much he cared. He was unashamed of his emotions.

YOUR ALIAS: Cali.
RULE WORDS: I threw them away!
WHERE YOU FOUND US: The Moon.
SAMPLE:

I will not provide a sample at this time, thank you!

[Cali]